blogging – Page 2 – The philosophical one

To live is the rarest thing in the world, most people exist, that is all.
– Oscar wilde

Yeah that’s right, I am one of those ‘most people‘ Oscar Wilde is talking about. I live my dream life in my head but lack the courage to chase after it. Most of you must know at least one person who sticks with the safest route, avoids trying anything new, gets severe anxiety in unfamiliar situations, that’s exactly how I live or rather exist. I’ve never actually lived my life only survived it.

This monotonous routine often makes me depressed and question my existence.I lay in my bed at night regretting every opportunity I missed. Living with regret is the worst feeling ever and to make things worse my brain is constantly churning out ‘what if’ scenarios.

What if I hadn’t backed out from that trip? What if I had appeared for that competitive exam I spent a year preparing for? What if I hadn’t chickened out from a conversation with my crush? (well that’s an embarrassing story for another time) Ughh! I don’t know what would have happened if, but all I know it was worth taking the risk.

I stuck with safe options because I thought nothing would ever go wrong. My perspective changed when I met my now best friend.

Her personality is exact opposite of mine. She is spontaneous, cheerful, extroverted and has very little regrets in life. In one of our deep conversation sessions she said one thing that stuck with me “we take decisions thinking they are right, wanting them to be right but it’s beyond our control to have predicted the end result” A weight was lifted off my chest. All my life I was obsessed with being perfect, waiting for the perfect moment to do stuff so that nothing goes wrong. But what I didn’t realize was that, even safe options fail so might as well take that risk.

Now I know that there’s a whole world with endless possibilities waiting for me, there’s so much I haven’t seen or experienced, great cities, their culture, art, food, music and yes of course people. Maybe I’ll meet a lot of interesting ones who’ll completely change my perspective on certain matters, some of them may become life lessons and perhaps a few of them will stay in my life forever.

You might think that these are just things I hope and wish would happen. Well life is anything but predictable that doesn’t mean we can’t hope for a better tomorrow, after all, hopes and dreams are what keeps us going.

It’s just one life, just one, so make sure it’s an epic one.

Although I’ve always been a dog lover, I have never had one as a pet before. My sister and I would practically beg our parents for a pet dog. Dad was some what inclined to get one, but my mom was not very pleased with the idea. She thought we wouldn’t take care of the dog and ultimately all the responsibilities would fall on her.

I mean we can’t blame mom though, because as kids we were not the responsible type, and she already had too much on her plate.
So we tried to understand and stopped pestering our parents for a dog

Now flashforward to time when a mama dog gave birth to four puppies in our neighborhood, four adorable fur babies. Barring a few most of our neighbors liked dogs,some even fed them and also made them a bed with old blankets.
Very soon most of them got adopted and found forever homes, except for one. Well she was different from the rest of them, she was smaller and was terrified of people unlike her siblings who loved being the center of attraction, maybe that’s why she never got adopted I guess.

We would feed the mama dog and the pup every night. The pup gradually warmed up to us. Well this went on for six months, my sister and I played with the pup fed her & her mom every night. On one such when we were looking for the mama dog to feed them only the pup came out, the mama was no where to be seen, also I hadn’t seen her all day. Now I was starting to get a little worried but still, I fed the pup and went back home. I thought she’d return late at night to her pup.

The next day again there was no sign of the mama dog and pup was really scared to even come out for food. The pup came closer to me shivering and whining, I think she was calling for her mom, I teared up, I couldn’t see her like this.

Later that evening one of our neighbors told my mom that a dog met with an accident in front of his shop last night and maybe that was this pup’s mother.
I cried myself to sleep that night.

Well the next morning I woke up with a terrible headache and shitty mood. After finishing breakfast I was mindlessly switching channels on TV when my mom came out of the kitchen and she said and I quote “you know what let’s take her in” It took me some time to register what mom said.

Well what followed was that we gave the pup a bath, mom and dad took her to a vet and got her vaccinated and brought her home.

And that’s how I met my dog six years ago. Honestly I think she was destined to be a part of our family.

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One epic life

How I met my dog